its nice to be away from school, and the craziness on the floor, but i miss everyone...its funny how at school you really struggle to find time alone and then here i am, able to be alone and i want to be surrounded by my friends.
ive been having some trouble with all that lately, it seems as though anyone and everyone i would want to hang out and talk with is so busy, or not interested in hanging out or what have you...but everyone else is so demanding of my time. my room is a constant rotation of stories and trials that people are going through, and while im so happy to be a safe place for people to go to and figure things out, im not a junkyard where you can verbally toss out all of your emotional trash. sometimes i just need to do my homework, i dont have time to listen and sort through all of your problems.
or, on the flip side, i hate that i am not "enough" for other people. i want to be there for them, i want to talk, to listen...but i cannot. i do not understand the things they are going through, im not interested in the things that they are interested in. i am unable to fulfill their needs and i hate that. sometimes i wonder why we even "fit", i guess that there doesnt always have to be a reason. i dont know.
break is good, change is good. this is coming at the right time. i need to gather myself together and figure things out. this is a season of growth for me and i look ahead with great expectancy and excitement.
ps. i miss you savannah, i wish that our breaks were at the same time :]
2 comments:
it's always good to set boundaries in that area, to be able to be there for others, but to have them understand that you need your "me time" too.
ahhhh
i miss you too!
so much!
it makes me sad!
Im praying for you and just love you so much!
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